It’s terrible, really terrible because kind Cedric asked me to submit RJ, a RJ with one thousand words thanks to I offended him and talked nonsense in class today.
I am thinking about the possibility for achieving this incredible task ever since Cedric finished his lesson and left our classroom with evil smile and satisfaction.
It’s really a great challenge for me though I have to admit I have sort of talent of composition.
However, I like challenge, it would inspirit me and drive me exciting at most times.
At the same time, I always only write for myself, force or order could make me feel disgusted and resistant.
The question of RJ is “What are your after thoughts for today's lesson”. It’s nice. It’s an open topic with great extendibility that I favor, that by which I like evil Cedric so much.
I think I can make it because when I consider this RJ as today’s blog, I am feeling better.
The only difference between them is it is supposed to have much more words than normal blogs I wrote before and it can be predicted that there would be many superfluous words in it.
What I can attempt to do now is just do not make this long long RJ boring and sleepy, at least, not as boring and sleepy as Culture&Aesthetics.
All the things below are my thought and experience after today’s lesson.
The topic of the lesson today is Reality TV.
Unluckily, I seldom, almost never watch TV ever since I arrived Singapore – the most time I watch it is when I am sitting in buses and I think a pretty girl in bus is much more attractive than the TV show and all.
There were only 3 channels I favored and watched when I was in China – Phoenix News Channel, Asia Plus Broadcasting, HBO.
I did not watch them in Singapore though there still is a TV at home because generally it’s hard to find that kind of mood and feeling to watch it, homelike feeling.
Well, about today’s project, it’s stupid, it asks our team to present the harm of Reality TV.
Hegel says “One can only reason about the existence of an object that one already assumes to exist”.
As my see, for us, there is no meaning to argue Reality TV is good or bad because it has existed there and we cannot change any thing except making noises.
Actually, I prepared some good resources for our presentation but I almost said nothing, did not want to say any thing about it because my team members had said enough words though most of them are rubbish, this why sometimes I think I could do projects much better rather than teamwork. Unluckily, I am lazy to do at most times.
Besides, My super lame spoken English has generated a shadow covering me, making me be afraid of talking.
I am supposed to be sad and nervous now for we were caught by a director of RP by reason of gambling in classroom.
We didn’t confess it, surely we should not confess it, we told the security who recorded our names and IDs that we were just playing magic at that time, but we were gambling and all.
There are 8 gamesters experiencing this disaster, all of them except me are from TN0408 which is beside my classroom, TN0406.
Anjune and Jianming are the only two guys whom I know their names, actually, I see all of them almost everyday but I really cannot remember their names - I am always not good at remembering other ones’ names.
Tell the truth, I have not played Black Jack for a long time and I can not reject the tropical invitation from TN0408 when I am passing by it after class today.
I was exciting and mad when I got a Black Jack, a real Black Jack with Jack A and Jack 10, and the rough luck approached me at the same time in silence – the director coming in.
But instead of being dismayed I watched this process with the same sort of interest I might have taken in watching a comedy. And I know I am right, I cannot change things which have happened, what I can do is just enjoy it.
You see, I have been crazy that I treat this terrible thing as enjoyment. There is almost nothing can stun me now, nothing but one, the one still haunts me.
Today is the third day of Valentine Day. It sucks.
Some stupid zealots make a songs indication activity outside canteen, outside our classroom.
The further stupid thing is they come to classroom and ask if someone want to indicate any song.
The whole class are boiling and I am driven mad extremely – They draught me and indicate a song by my name regardless my rage.
I don’t want to write anything about it any more, I have written it enough in my former blogs. I even don’t know what I am thinking now.
Everyone blames me, everyone laughs at me, it’s my deserving thing, I also laugh at myself, I feel so ashamed.
I think I have had mental shadow.
Playing soccer with Alfi, Shaun and the guys from TN0408 from 5pm to 7pm, exhausting me.
The feeling that running freely in burning sunshine with all my strength without any fetter is wonderful.
Besides, I like the six masses of muscle on my bingy, I appreciate them though I know they will become one loose chunk sooner or later because of the horrible aging.
I am afraid of aging much more than death.
There is the Open House in school tomorrow.
I was eager to take part in it before, but now, don’t want, it has no value for me except the CE points which can be gained by other more valuable ways.
But I will go school, not for Open House, I want to go school library for studying, for Linux due to I do not mood to do anything at home.
It’s splendid, really splendid that I have written one thousand words in today’s RJ, I know I can, I have achieved Cedric’s psychopathic require.
I told Cedric I would try to make it but I did not think he had patience to read, he said he would.
So, dear Cedric, if you can get to this part by insisting boring and sleepy reading, thank you! And if you could give me a good daily grade considering this terrible RJ which has worn me out, I would thank you with all my life!
Regards
Gao Jin