somewhat depressed today

I was somewhat depressed today when I woke up in the morning.
Today is chinese new year. Every my friend seems like be happy, but I am not, I don't have any feeling about the new year, I even never miss my family.
There is only myself, I only want to stay with myself.

Before last Christmas, I remember impressively, Kailash told me that festival is just an excuse for party and celebration. I did not agree with him, but I could not find a reason to disprove.
I tell him my feeling in the morning by MSN and ask him what he plan to do today.
He says he just want to catch up on studies missed due to Linux day and he tells me don't worry about what I cannot have and be happy with what I have and do something that engage my mind like even computer games.
I think he is right, but I don't want to play games anymore, so go Tampines to meet Lingbo.

They were playing Mah-jong at home and asked me to join, I said I don't know how to play though I started playing it from I was a little boy - I like playing any kind of gamblings except Mah-jong. I don't know why it alway makes me feel disgusted.

Ate dinner with Lingbo and his friends at Geylang later.
It's a nice restaurant operated by the people from China with original chinese taste.
I am surprised that Lingbo has so many friends all from China, comparatively, the guys from China I am familiar with are no more than 5 - Shilei, Lingbo, Ruijuan, Jiangwei, Haidong.
Tell the truth, I don't like having dinner with so many people at this day though they are good and friendly guys, it's noisy.

The restaurant is near the famous red-light district, there is no reason to go home directly after the dinner, hehe.
We strolled from lane 10 to lane 14, watching the amazing view.
There are many prostitutes waiting beside the road, for their survival.
I saw one, only one, with excellent figure and angel face. She makes me feel woeful - why such a pretty girl would earn her living by being a prostitutes. If I meet her on road outside Geylang, maybe I would be moved though I never have the courage to accost, never.
Tell the truth, I dislike prostitute, but I do respect them - someone earn their livings by two hands, someone earn their livings by brain, they just earn their livings by body. Otherwise, if there is no need, they would not exist, they just satisfy the desire of human. It's the falsity of human natual. Right or wrong, I really do not like them.
Honestly and directly, I never touch them before, but I cannot promise I won't touch them forever because I also have desire.

I don't want to go on celebrating this new year any more with Lingbo at this night, it's not special for me now, I have treated it as common as everyday.
Kailash is much more powerful than me, there really are a lot of things I should learn from him.