I feel boring to write blog in recent days

The blog I wrote in receny days is such infrequent due to I feel boring to record my living now.
Though there are many things happen everyday and many feelings I have everytime, I don't have any motivation and mood to write them down because all of them repeat and represent again and again, there is no surprise, no excitation, no renewal.

The only thing makes me somewhat delighted in past two weeks is the final grade I got.
I never concentrated on studying in class and almost did nothing everyday in last semester but I got 4 B+ and 1 B.
They surprise me and I feel regretful at the same time that I am not but I can be in top 5% if I didn't miss Math's UT4.

Time is the best eraser in the world, it abrases my memory and feeling away at any moment anywhere.
If I don't continually write the things happened on me, most of them would be forgotten soon and never get back. It's not the final I want.
At the same time, perhaps there is no need to record down any word about those things I won't forget forever.

Sometime I am really bored about the things I do, but I indeed enjoy the time when I stay with my friends, then I don't care about doing anything whenever stay with friends.

I woke up at 6am yeasterday and went to school and stayed in library for the whole day alone. It was so cold even though I took one more shirt.
Mingbo asked me to watch "The eye 10" in the evening. It was the third time he asked me to go and I never like watch those horrible movies.
I felt lucky that the tickets were sold out when we went last two times, but Lingbo bought tickets yesterday.
After watching "The eye 10", I still want to say: I never like horrible movies!

I betted soccer with Shaun though I knew nothing about it, I even didn't know which team fought which team because I don't like watch soccer match.
However, I know Shaun know, it's enough.
Unluckiy, we lost......

Ate Sushi with Jieling, Cindy, Wilfred, Yewjinn, Sherman and Shaun at Singapore Plaza many days ago.
The restaurant was so lucky that there was no buffet at that day.
It's the first time I eat Sushi in Singapore and I really cannot feel wonderful taste from those raw food.
Afterward, I went to Swensens and enjoyed its "earthquake", then played guess number and the loser should drink a big cup of water. There were many empty cups left.

Well, I think I have written enough today and don't know when is the next time I write this blog, maybe one week, maybe two or more.
One more thing, I alway lost things every week in this month. It makes my irritated and now I am waiting to see what I will lose in this week.

I need reading and study to engage my life.

My life shortened one more week again since the last time I wrote this blog.
I treasure my life especially the golden time at present due to I have the best body and energy comparing with ten years bebore and ten years after.
Tell the truth, I am afraid of aging much more than death.
However,there are too many things around me that are out of my control. Sometime I feel weak, boring, depressing, void, sad, puzzle, scared about life and I cannot find and follow a way to engage and inspire it.
It drives me mad.

I didn't have any mood to write in the past week and there seems like many things happened, but the thing I want to say now is the things happened around me are useless!
I have to admit that most of them are good memory in my life and I never regret to do them, I appreciate them, but, they are useless.
They do not have any help and value for my future, for my dream, I am still weak after doing and experiencing all of them.

I don't have a good brain to memory. The things happened a few days ago have been piece and piece.
The things marked in my mind are just some solid images like Cindy's cheese cake, Farhan's ice blended mango, a nice night with Yewjinn and Cindy, boring day at home, my watermelon and apple, a long and funny talk with Shaun and Wilfred at woodland, the Addias promotion at export, Suntec City.
It really bores me to review.

It's was such coincident to came across Farhan and Shidah on my way home in train at 10pm at last week.
Then we drank coffee, smoked Shisha and played Scrabble with his friends in a remote lane at bugis.
It was the first time I smoked Shisha. It made me stun and sick - My body alway feels uncomfortable with those sensitive things like cigarette and alcohol though I have tried my best to adapt.
Anyhow, I won't see Farhan in school anymore brcause he will join army in three weeks, I will miss him.

Swam with Shuan at Jujong East yesterday.
I have to say that I am a such lame swimmer though I like swimming and started to learn how to swim when I was a kid.
Then we went to eat Steamboat with Sherman, Yewjinn, Caiqi, Zhengchuan, Jielin and Wilfred.
It was the same time, same place. I still remember the last time we came here, the last time I came across the one, the only one I was afraid of, Singapore is really small, haha!
but there were not too many people there yesterday and I was such hungry like a wild dog.
We went to bugis to stroll after that and drank coffee in Starbucks - the coffee in Starbucks is such nice and its price is also such nice!
I know the time I have to stay with friends of TN0406 is less and less.

I went to school today. Sherman, Yewjinn, Shaun and Wilfred also came to school. It surprised me that there were so many people in school today.
We were sitting in library till the person asked us to leave, then we went to Jubarong for dinner.
Burger King, Ya Kun, You Tiao, they are the things we ate for dinner though I never felt hungry at the beginning.
I also never felt hungry in past one week. Eating has been a habit to fill the void. I would be a pig soon.
I saw a guy in school in the whole afternoon today, I knew immediately he was the one and all when I saw him. It was the first time I saw him from front and I still remembered the last time I saw him impressively. It's pretty interesting.

There were only 3 things I did in library in the whole day: listening music, read 3 pages of "the catcher in the rye", play CS!
I understood I was wasting time - there are so many things I want to do and learn but I cannot stop wasting time, I alway play so much and cannot concentre on the thing I should do. This is why I am irritated about myself.
I am going to go school alone to study tomorrow, but it's really not a good news that Wilfred just told me he would also go school tomorrow, hehe.

"Study is a lonely process", I believe this words.
I also believe that "all the personal effort can gain double return and praise in future".

what a frantic concert

Never say goodbye, TN0406

It's the last day for first year, the last day for TN0406, a happy day, a gloomy day.

I arrived school at 9:00 and Cedric finished the class at 12:00.
It was too quickly, it was not supposed to be finished so quickly for me, for everyone in TN0406.
The whole class bursted into carzy in a short time as if doomsday came in.
We are shouting, we are laughing, we are stacking on one table and the table broke down due to it cannot endure such heavy desperation.
TN0406, my first year in Singapore, the torment I have, all the things have rung dowm the curtain, just leaving silence.

Saw so many guys and girls in school today, but maybe I have no chance to make friends with them forever - there are too many passing travellers in everyone's life and we won't know what we lose forever, It makes me sad.

Walked through Cityhall and Suntec City with Yewjinn, Jielin and Shaun from 3pm to 7pm and we ate at Nooch - we discussed the menu for more than half a hour and its food is not as nice as its environment.
There is a grand IT show at Suntec with close-packed crowd. Shaun was so excited to buy a new mouse.
Now, I am at Shaun's room and plan to go swim with him in tomorrow morning if we can wake up on time.

Watched Howl's Moving Castle yesterday.
The only criticism I have is it's too beautiful, colorful and fantastic that makes me be in daydream.
I am going to watch it one more time.

Farhan and Alfi indeed scared me today, they asked her to take photo with me.
I was drove in mad when I heard it.
I was scared, I was afraid of it though I cannot find any reason for me to be afraid.
I cannot imagine the image if they found me at that time and I don't know it's lucky or unlucky for me.
At last year's August, it's the last day of first half term, Angela asked me if I wanted to have her photo when we were in chalet. I said no. She asked why. I said photo represents memory, I didn't want her to be my memory.
However, I failed.

I ate a lot of chocolate and icecream today because I am upset.
Sugar can let me feel a little better.
Luckily, fat is not a problem for me, at least as far as now.

Every day repeats again and again and there is supposed to be an end.

Black rose and White rose

My deep impression and profound comprehension about white rose are given by "Letter From An Unknow Woman", the most affecting novel I ever read, written by Stefan Zweig.
From that time, I liked white rose.

Today, Enterprise Skill, we are going to make detailed plans of the business we want to start.
Last week Yewjinn planed a condom house and I choosed to open a flower house this week.
Definitely, it's not supposed to be a common flower house, it's especial, it's unique, it's luxurious due to there are only two kinds of flower with best quality in the world sold in this house - black rose and white rose.
I know it's a ridiculous plan that could not exist in real world, but who cares about it, it's just a plan with crazy imagination, it's just for fun.
Each rose would be imported from holland and be sold at the price of 99 dollar, haha.

I play CS frequently in recently days and I have been both an idol and a public enemy in school's server because no one can escape from my camp.
I alway stay on top score and there alway are many people cursing me and there are also many people following me to camp, haha.
But on the other hand, it's really dangerous for me now because few people knows who I am except my classmates.

Everyone is boring after school including Yewjin, Jieling, Cindy and me.
We stayed in library for one and half hour preparing tomorrow's UT after class, then went to Sinapore Plaza.
Cindy had an "ant" to meet there and we went with her just because of being boring.
It's indeed pity that there are so many things I want but without money to buy!

Tomorrow will be Cindy's class, Engineering Math, her last class.
I think I should treasure it and cannot be late any more though I am alway late.
Have an early sleep today!

What a amazing image

I said I didn't want to go out yesterday, it's true, but it's also true that it's really boring to stay at home. Then, I went to play soccer after receiving a call from Lingbo.

The weather is unusual at the day, no sunshine, strong wind with cold, cloud covering the whole sky. It's a gloomy day.
We are running on a grand grassland under the gray heaven, no one else.
I don't know why I raise my head, I don't know why I am looking at the sky, I don't know why there is a balloon flying above my head.
It's a pink balloon, the only color in the dim and ashen sky, it's flying freely with the wind, waveringly.
Strong wind took it flying away from me quickly and it became smaller and smaller, the pink color became lighter and lighter. Then, it disappeared out of anyone's control and nothing left except the dark cloud. No one know where it's from and where it will go.
It's the image of which I only heard in a fiction or moive, but it indeed happened on me at yesterday's aftenoon.
At that time, I watched the whole gloomy process with smile, didn't want to share with anybody.

I decide to transfer my course

Just ate up half of watermelon, no bad.

I am considering changing my course from Electronics Engineering to Information Technology.
It's not because I dislike EE, I just think perhaps IT is more suitable for me due to I am eager to be a professional and powerful programmer.
After comparing these two course structures, IT's is much more attractive for me like Database, OS and relative courses about programming and I think they are more interesting and easier for me to learn.
However, unluckily, there is a statistic summary about students who have submit submission to change course, half of these students are from IT! I think IT is really dry and hard to learn well for most students, but may not for me.
The two most popular courses are Biomedical Sciences and Business Computing. BC is sort of the same as IT, but it combines Business in it and it's not such professional.
I had discussed my decision with Edmund, he said it's ok if I really want to work in IT. Maybe I should ask some advices from other teachers.

So sleepy now, the words I wrote today make me sleepy and all.
I am supposed to have a good sleep tonight because I already didn't sleep at home for two days.

Tell the truth, I fell into depression and low tide in recent days, I keep thinking what I lost and what I am losing, I am sad, I feel I lost my way or I just cannot see my way.
Obviously, there is a bad direction happening on me - I become more and more quiet and bored, I prefer listening much more than speaking when I stay with my friends, I don't know what proper things I should say and do sometimes.
I am such weak!

Well, it's time to sleep and don't want to go anywhere tomorrow.

Happy Wilfred's birthday, Thanks for Cedric's dinner and Cindy's birthday cake, Wish Caiqi and all my friends can be happy other than me

I lost my earphone

I am on the fringe of rage though I have been trying to keep calm.
I lost my earphone.
It's never a normal earphone, it's CM7, it's worth 170 bucks, it likes my friend accompanying me when I need him.
Someone took it away from me, the one should hide in darkness with evil smile at present. However, I have not any desire to damn or curse him because I don't want to give him any more feeling of satisfaction.

Now, sitting on Shaun's bed, I will stay at his home tonight.
Planed to teach him Engineering Science at night , but, definitely, I have no mood to do anything.

Though I see her view of back everyday when I am in school, I have already not seen her on MSN for almost two weeks, maybe she has blocked or deleted me. It's great.

If you want to see further than other men, you should stand on the shoulder of giant

Late to school for 20 mins in the morning, it was no bad to see so many people as late as me when I was walking in campus, hehe.
Originally, I intended to write at yesterday night but there were some problems of the internet in my new house, so sad.

Moved house yesterday with Shi Lei from Ajunied to Tampines.
It’s an good place to live for the ones who study in Temasek, unluckily, I am in RP.
Perhaps I would move to a place near school after holiday.
Tell the truth, I like the feeling that live at a new place. Moving house might be a tough job for most people but not for me.

Went to school in the afternoon for attending the lecture at Meritus Mandarin Hotel at 7pm given by Gerard Hooft , the one won Nobel Price of physics in 1999.
Newton says "If I have seen further than other men, it is because I have stood on the shoulders of giants".
I heard this words a long long time ago, unluckily, I have not qualification to stand on giants' shoulders yet, but it's also great to take a look of a giant beside his foot.
It's a super talk about origin of universe and structure of atom, but many guys from RP fell asleep. Cedric said he felt ashamed.

It's luck that Cedric is the leader of RP's team.
Both of us are such hungry druing the lecture, I heard my stomach's grunt.
He treat me a nice dinner after that at Prima Taste and I ate two sets of rice, haha.

I saw 3 cats yesterday, 3 little cats which just born for several days lay beside the road without any tendance.
They are cold, stacking together to get more warmth. They are trying to creep, but they are too weak and even cannot open their eyes.
I intended to buy some milk for them, but could not find any shop nearby.
I thought to take them home, but I realised that what was happening is their fate, they must face their fate as a wild cat, whatever die or live.
At last, their mother came and drew them into a drain.