I endure heaven's hope and hell's suffering at the same time

Just called my father and mother.
I told them I am fine at present, they said they are also fine and asked me to take care of myself, I said ok, then there is no more thing to say.
The communication between my parents and me is not good from I was very young.
Actully to say, it's very bad. They alway want to control me and educate me by their ways, but I strongly disagree, I believe I am supposed to have my own life which is formed by myself. So, I came to Singapore.
I even didn't tell them I got a contract from Gerard and plan to quit school to open a new and grand world.
I think it's old enough for me to take responsibility for all things I do whether they succeed or fail.

I have forgotten the last time I wrote RJ.
One reason is I alway hate it, another reason is I haven't attended a class for a whole day for a long time.
Only C+ are gotten in my Web Media and Database UT though I thought they should be good. I even missed the OS UT in today's morning, sux.

It's hard to depict the feeling and the living I am taking now. No one can feel and understand it.
There are many things I lost and will lose making me cry, there also are many thing making me remember forever.
Obviously, I am standing at the top of a fucking dangerous wave, playing it.
Anyhow, I nerver regret what I did and appreciate all of them.