Probably it's the last blog I write at here

I think I fall sick, terrible sick I never suffered before, it would break me down - PSYCHOSIS.
I have become somewhat mad now, upset, anxious, strained, worrying and I cannot get rid of all of them absolutely.
Luckily, I have addicted to enjoy all of them.
I deleted all the games in my computer, I never thought to do it before but I indeed did it just now and I don't have any mood or intention to write down any thing about my life though I appreciate everything around me.
If there isn't my mother, my father and all my friends in the world, I prefer death much more than living.
I said the disease would destroy me slowly, minute by minute, day by day, perhaps it's not a disease, it's realism, it's fatal and no one can see, no one can help me - It's true.

It's sad that I am not a freshman anymore

I admire luxurious life but I am weak and poor

I am in bad mood now. It seems like that I alway have bad mood once I stay at home or be alone.

Sometimes I want to write blog, but I cannot find any valuable and new thing of which I can pride.
Sometimes I consider giving up blogging, but I also cannot let all the things go without any mark in my life.
It's a game - "once start, cannot quit", hehe.

Played soccer with Shaun and his friends from 7:30 to 9:30 at jurong point today.
I was playing by bare feet because I didn't know we would play before and my right foot bled due to the blister. It's so achy when I was taking bath and it's somewhat puffy now, but I think it will be well soon.
Stayed at Shaun's home over night with Chin Ye yesterday and we played game with Sherman and Shaun's brother in the whole afternoon today.
Chin Ye's joke really sucks though he is a nice guy.

Farhan have joined army on last Friday.
The last time I met him is on last Tuesday and we ate dinner with Abar at Ngee Ann City then we two went to City Hall to meet Shida and his other friends.
Though we played together many times before, I still cannot remember all of their names - I have such bad memory.
We stayed outside Esplanade beside the river and called the express of Pizzad.
It is a nice night!
Though sometimes I cannot understand what they were talking about, I am enjoying these 7 friends, I am enjoying this night.

Drank coffee with Yewjinn in Wednesday's afternoon at Specific Coffee then we went to Fu Nan to eat Sushi with Sherman and Shaun.
It's different from last time I ate at here, it's buffet today!
I had the feeling of throwing up when we came out the restaurant and we wrote down these words on feedback ticket: "Your rice is too much".
Afterward, we were walking without direction and arrived Fullertion Hotel. After discussing, we went inside and used its grand toilet.
There was a girl fishing on the big bridge by using a long string and she indeed fished a big fish when we passed by.
The icecream in Esplanade's Hagen-dazs is such expensive but its waiter is no bad, so we left 60 cents tips when we left with Wilfred's handphone number on the ticket and asked her to give call.

Went to school to met Dr.Liew in school for my course transfer.
He says maybe I can tranfer the credits and no need to study for one more year, it's great.
Wilfred came to school to format his laptop and we went to orchard in the evening.
He told me he was surprised that there was a girl from Hagen-dazs calling him at yesterday's night. It made me laugh for quite a while.
It's a crazy dinner spending 3 hours. We ate black pepper chicken rice first, then icecream, barbecue chicken and rice, otah, japanese bread, cheese cake.
I was eating no because I was hungry, I just felt I still could eat.

Everybody is bored in holiday

The rain was heavy and lasted a long time today, but I like it, I like that feeling when I am walking in it, so I went out home after waking up at 12am.

Now, I am somewhat excited caused by seeing two girls in the train on my way home after doing part-time job just now.
They are two absolutely different kinds girl.
One wears a pink T-shirt and a white Mini-skirt with golden hair and pretty makeup. Two boxes of new clothes are carried in her hand.
The another one wears a white shirt and black Western-style pants with a nice black glasses. She is reading a book inteetly.
They don't know each other but they are staying in a same train beside me and both of their style and figure attract me a lot though both of them don't have beautiful face.
I am amazing to see these two bloody catching girls with totally different style at the same time at the same place.
But I know, they are two more meteors in my life. Once I got off of the train, I would never see them anymore in future. I am sort of pitiful about it but this feeling is no bad.
Shaun told me before:"parallel lines never cross". It's makes me laugh, it's a nice black humor.

Had a talk with Cedric in school in the afternoon because I really puzzle with my course transfer.
It has already been proved but if I accept, there are 5 modules for me to retake.
It means I have to study for more half a year and it's not only concerned with half-year time, but also many complicated factors.
Anyhow, though I figure on working IT in future, I have decided to reject this transfer now.
Tell the truth, It's somewhat desperate for my future after talking with Cedric. Perhaps I am alway desperate but just don't realize most times.

One more holiday week flowed away again and I got nothing.
Played with Jielin, Shaun, Yewjinn, Sherman, Cindy almost everyday in this week.
Tuesday, Plaze Sinapore, watched "The eye 10" again! Then ate Swensen, soya bean and chicken rice though we had have dinner.
Wednesday, It was crazy to meet at 8:30 at Jubarong just for eating Ya Kun and we stayed in library for the whole day and went to Queen's way and ate.
Thursday, Jurong point. Sherman took a CS match in school in the afternoon. I was surprised that there were so many people coming back school in holiday just for playing CS.
Friday, we played netball from 5pm to 7:30pm with Cindy and other facilitators who still can run. Cindy and Shaun are such good at shooting the basket. Then we went to Plaza Singapore again. Ajimen ramen, the nice and the only nice noodle I can find in Singapore.

There is a goddamn curse on me recently - I lost important things everyweek since March's first week.
100 bucks last week and my new earring in this morning when I was taking shower.
I have been driven mad and don't know what I can do.

It's very strange at 1am 30th March.
I was so tired at that day but woke at 1am without any disturb and could not sleep any more.
I felt that there were something happening at that moment which could influence my future life. However, I wouldn't know what happened and the reality forever and perhaps there was nothing happening at that time.

I am really bored and upset when I am alone, the only two things I can do is reading in library and playing games at home.
At least I know, everyone is bored in holiday, it makes me feel better, hehe.

It's indeed desperate of the distance between my ideality and reality.