X-Man

It's not a nice approach to become a X-Man by getting X from everyday lesson, but I did.
As missing the alarm clock in the morning yesterday, I was woken up by Edmund's call at 12:00 and went to school without laptop. Angela asked me to join the presentation, I said ok, but could you give me X, she also said ok.
Today, it would a perfect day if Kailash and Manish did not come to RP to configure the computers from Esys which will be used next week, but they did.
I successfully applied for a X from Cindy and missed the third meeting.
It's so comfortable that no need to write RJ for two days.

Telling the truth, I am really anxious and nervous about the Linux week, about the talk I will give on next Monday. I have not felt so dense pressure for a long time. It's my show time and maybe it's also my collapse time.
Angela promised to practise me tomorrow, but don't know how useful it is.
I think I am not a good organizer, there are many things have not been finished and there is no time left, the posters have not printed out, the questions for competition have not been done, Redhat has not given me response for the last email I sent to them.
The biggest problem is the talk I will give, don't expect every one sleeping in Annex Hall and I am talking to myself!

Druing the dinner, I just realized that maybe I am a fragile and frail guy though I alway think I am not.
I am afraid of failture and being hurt so much and try to escape and solve by myself everytime, fear and worry are full of my mind.
I don't know what should I fear though there are a lot of things that need to be feared, I don't know what should I am worried about though there are lot of things that need to be worried about.
I alway struggle with myself and fail myself finally.
I would be in mad.