I don't know how to appraise my nowaday life.

I am indeed good at sleeping, sleep about 10 to 12 hours everyday in recently, and spend all the rest time on working.

There are hundreds of ports, cables and all kinds of networking equipments in GETC's server room which must be settled well by Foo Chye and me.
But there are alway many fucking problems which are in a great mess and driving me mad.
However, they force me to keep learning many things everyday and I can feel my experience accumulates in a striking speed.

I am somewhat proudhearted now.
From Windows to Lunix programming, from hardware installation to Cisco networking, there was no problem which could stop me.
I have taken charge the contact with London for networking support and the contact with German RTD group for RTD technical support by email because my spoken English still sucks. I am its enemy.

However, I couldn't feel any joy from working at all, I just keep doing what I should do day by day.
The only thing which could make I feel somewhat comfortable for a while is the feeling after settling a big trouble.
Actually only big troubles can make me sort of excited now. I am like a dead fish at most of the time.

Fish is the only meat I would like to eat in recently, I don't know why.
Fish+vegetable+rice or fish soup+rice, every meal.

I think my parent have been missing me. they are supposed to ask me to come back China in holiday but they even don't know I am going to quit school till now.
I don't want they to worry about me or supervise my living.
I should take all the darkness, void and loneliness by myself.

I believe, when we get some things, we would lose many things at the same time, vice versa.