It starts
I decide to restart my blog tonight because I signed in my friendster just now in which I felt a feeling of which I hadn't felt for a long time.
It's really hard to tell this feeling only by words. It's complicated, it twists me and confuses me, but I like it so much.
There are many things happening in past months in which I feel tremendous stress that I never felt in past 21 years. I will write down them as explicit and honest as I can even you don't believe - I don't care about.
My last memory stays at the days before this new semester. There was a freshmen camp in our school at that time and Yewjinn and I pretended to be new students joining the water bomb after playing netball with Cindy and other people.
There is a super sexy girl in freshmen making Yewjinn and I cannot breathe. He said she would be the next school flower, I said she should pass me first.
In the first two weeks of the new semester, Shuan, Yewjinn, Sherman, Zhengchuan, Jielin, Caiqi, we almost went out and ate after school everyday, but this situation was stopped by my heavy part-time work and the event which could change my whole life.
It began from the CCA launch.
I asked sponsorship from Novell for Open Source IG and david was such generous and gave me a lot of things. At the same time, he asked me to work as a promoter for their SuSe Linux in Fu Nan's Challenger in which I met Gerard!
I talked with Gerard for 10 mins by my lame spoken english and he asked my handphone.
It surprised me that he called me after one week and asked me to see him in their company which occupies the whole 11 floor of Temasek tower.
He introduces the networking system of their company to me and says that his team plans to build Asia's first hubs for Chicago Mercantile Exchange in Singapore, he wants to know what I can do for him!
My god, I never thought I would be involved in such great business and it's totally out of my ability.
Gerard said he asked me because he like me, and the people he needs should be good at Linux/Unix, Cisco Networking Systems and Mircosoft Systems.
I told him I am weak and it's out of my ability, but I will study them quickly. Then I am studying all of them everyday.
I don't think I can really get this job though I am eager to get it, there are 31 applicant who are much more powerful than me. I have no confidence to manage it because it's too big and complex.
Otherwise, no one knows it before today's blog.
Actually, thought is full of my mind everyday, I am thinking and dreaming too many things around me and I know it makes me suffering but I cannot stop it.
At the same time, my thought is dark and complicated, I don't want to and I don't know how to tell or share with friends.
Cannot go on writing today, there are many things waiting me, I think I will have no sleep tonight because I have slept too much at daytime.
It's really hard to tell this feeling only by words. It's complicated, it twists me and confuses me, but I like it so much.
There are many things happening in past months in which I feel tremendous stress that I never felt in past 21 years. I will write down them as explicit and honest as I can even you don't believe - I don't care about.
My last memory stays at the days before this new semester. There was a freshmen camp in our school at that time and Yewjinn and I pretended to be new students joining the water bomb after playing netball with Cindy and other people.
There is a super sexy girl in freshmen making Yewjinn and I cannot breathe. He said she would be the next school flower, I said she should pass me first.
In the first two weeks of the new semester, Shuan, Yewjinn, Sherman, Zhengchuan, Jielin, Caiqi, we almost went out and ate after school everyday, but this situation was stopped by my heavy part-time work and the event which could change my whole life.
It began from the CCA launch.
I asked sponsorship from Novell for Open Source IG and david was such generous and gave me a lot of things. At the same time, he asked me to work as a promoter for their SuSe Linux in Fu Nan's Challenger in which I met Gerard!
I talked with Gerard for 10 mins by my lame spoken english and he asked my handphone.
It surprised me that he called me after one week and asked me to see him in their company which occupies the whole 11 floor of Temasek tower.
He introduces the networking system of their company to me and says that his team plans to build Asia's first hubs for Chicago Mercantile Exchange in Singapore, he wants to know what I can do for him!
My god, I never thought I would be involved in such great business and it's totally out of my ability.
Gerard said he asked me because he like me, and the people he needs should be good at Linux/Unix, Cisco Networking Systems and Mircosoft Systems.
I told him I am weak and it's out of my ability, but I will study them quickly. Then I am studying all of them everyday.
I don't think I can really get this job though I am eager to get it, there are 31 applicant who are much more powerful than me. I have no confidence to manage it because it's too big and complex.
Otherwise, no one knows it before today's blog.
Actually, thought is full of my mind everyday, I am thinking and dreaming too many things around me and I know it makes me suffering but I cannot stop it.
At the same time, my thought is dark and complicated, I don't want to and I don't know how to tell or share with friends.
Cannot go on writing today, there are many things waiting me, I think I will have no sleep tonight because I have slept too much at daytime.
posted by Gao Jin at 2:02 AM
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